Did You Get Me?

When I was in Primary 5, I was the class monitor. Mr Chew was our form teacher. I had just learned a new phrase “Did you get me?” and I had been dying to use it in a sentence to impress him.

One fine day, the opportunity came when he walked into the class and a few of my classmates were still held up in another class in another classroom. Mr Chew asked “Where are the rest?” I seized the opportunity. I told him my classmates were on their way back from another class and ended that sentence with “Did you get me?”

Mr Chew pointed his finger at me, looked me straight in the eye and said “Don’t be rude.” Thinking that he didn’t hear what I said, I repeated myself: “No, no, no…I mean did you get me?” He then also repeated “Don’t be rude!” I was devastated.

It wasn’t till I attended Landmark Education’s Communication: Power to Create course more than 20 years that I recalled this incident. As a young 11 year old boy, I was scolded by a person of authority for speaking in a direct manner. Since then, I grew hesitant of communicating in a direct and powerful way for fear of ‘getting scolded’. Instead I wrap my communication with sarcasm.

I became a sarcastic person.

I’m Just Speaking My Mind

Carl Rogers’ On Becoming A Person: A Therapist’s View of Psychotherapy is the most important book I read in my 20s. The idea that a therapist creates a safe space, free of judgement, for her patient by being congruent captivated me.

The way I understood congruence back then was that my outward behaviour (my speaking, my body language) is aligned or consistent with my thoughts and feelings at that moment. And nowadays, it’s commonly been described as being authentic when you’re speaking your mind or expressing your feelings.

It wasn’t till the Landmark Forum that I started to consider that my thoughts and feelings were often inauthentic and that I first had to unpack my thoughts and feelings.

I got attracted to a guy and then found out he was not that into me. ‘Naturally’ I started to think he’s not that great after all and started to feel much less attraction towards him.

I got excited about a business idea and then failed terribly when I executed it. ‘Naturally’ I started to think it wasn’t really my calling and started to feel much less passionate about the project.